Procrastination is overrated.

'If you never ask 

you may never know

If you never stretch

you may never grow

If you never take action

you may never go'

~ Jennifer Gayle.

Wise words and ones I often hear myself telling my kids. But do I model it for them?

If I was honest with myself the answer is

sometimes

but not often enough.

For those of you who know the enneagram you will understand when I say I am a 9.

A 9 who finds it very easy to procrastinate.

Instead of doing what I really need to do,

I will do little, less important, things.

I also like to have structure and routine otherwise nothing gets done.

Once I get going it is easy for me to keep going,

but there are times (and sometimes a lot of times)

when I have a hard time getting started.

Unfortunately I can become very critical of myself when I procrastinate

which in turn leads to anxiety and more unproductive time.

A couple of good books teaching on the Enneagram.



Right now my life is very, VERY full.

Busy and full.

And this is not likely to change for some time.

There is certainly no room for procrastination.

No room for unproductive time.

No room for me to get anxious, overwhelmed and worn out.

Don't get me wrong. I am not complaining.

I choose to include all that makes my world full.  

I love being a mum and all that goes with that.

I want to be a nurse and so I chose to finish my degree (albeit slowly).

I desire to create and travel this new creative life.

My question is how do I work with my weaknesses (ie: procrastination, etc.)

and do all that I need to do and desire to do?

After a lovely chat and catch up with Steve late last night I could see some answers.

I can ask.

Whether for help, assistance, a cuddle or a chat.

I can stretch myself.

Letting go of fear and anxiety.

Giving myself small achieveable goals which lead me further down the path I have choosen.

 I can take action.

I can work on being more disciplined, organised and balanced.

Be intentional about what I say yes and no too.

And most importantly

interspersed amongst everything else.

I can stop being so hard on myself and cut myself some slack.

I am OK.

I am loved.
I am cherished.

And so are each of you.  xx

                                                                                                

The delights of change.

'We delight in the beauty of the butterfly,
but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty" ~  Maya Angelou.

Change is a part of life.

A part of living in this beautiful yet broken world.

Change is unavoidable.

Change is wonderful and horrible.

Change can grow us or destroy us.

Change brings beauty as long as we allow it too.

I enjoy change,

 however usually only when I can control it.

When it comes sneaking up behind me and jumps out and says boo

I am not so willing to accept it.

When it comes from way down the road and I have time and opportunity to try and avoid it I am still

 a little wary of it.

There are times when I willingly accept it.

Sometimes change approaches me and I am relieved.

At last I say.

What took you so long?

Changes are a part of my world and a part of human life.

We can buck and avoid and kick and scream as much as we want but change will come.

Change will transform.

What it transforms and how is up to us.

The past few months have been somewhat challenging in our little world.

Changes have been on the horizon

 and we have had to accept them.

 Some of the changes have been unexpected

and we had to accept them just the same.

Looking back over these months

I can see how these changes came about, evolved and enveloped into our daily life. 

During some moments
these changes were not pleasant or inviting.
They were not something we celebrated,
however, they have brought beauty which is welcoming.

As the changes continue to knit their way into our life
the beauty follows.

One particular change came unexpectedly 

and yet it brought so much peace that I was, and still am, overwhelmed.

It involved a decision I had to make.

A decision to put aside a dream for a season.

It was a change that I initiated.

A change I welcomed.

A change that is already bringing beauty and life into our world.

As I delight in the beauty of my life

 I am also endeavouring to delight in the changes that bring this beauty. 

Space

'It's not the space you live in, but how you live in the space that matters' - Anonymous

Quote

"Only those who attempt the absurd achieve the impossible" (author unknown to me).

Hanging Rock, Blue Mountains

Matt C jumping the gap over to the Hanging Rock

Below the gap .....

To love...........

Found this quote here . It is true and beautiful.

Happiness

I found this quote in the front of a childrens book called 'Where's the Gold?' by Pamela Allen.

"Happiness is not getting what you want BUT wanting what you have got"

I just love this. And it is so true.

Just a thought

"The minute you begin to do what you really want to do, it's really a different kind of life"
Buckminster Fuller.